No Where To Go But Up From Here

Well the time has finally come!

I have put in my notice at work and I am stepping out on faith, trusting that God will provide a way. Its funny this is the first time I have no idea what I am going to do and how things will work out, but what I do know is my family and I will be more than ok. And for the first time in a long time I can breath and I have relief.

See I spent the past year depressed and worrying what was going to happen, how the bills would get paid, how the baby would get fed, etc. Meanwhile, while I am worrying and having my pity party I did not take the time to look around me and see how God was truely workng in my life.

What I failed to realize is no matter how bad things seemed, they always worked out. No matter how low I got or what my bank statement said the Lord always provided a way, I was never left with out. I have a supportive family and in this economy although I hated it I atleast had a job where I met wonderful co-workers in which I came to love.

It wasn't until I was hospitalized for depression (which I had no clue I had, I guess you could call it denial)that God showed me that I was putting my focus into the wrong things. I was spending my time at home in a Zombie like trance stressing out about my issues, instead of being thankful I had a supportive husband, and a beautiful daughter that were there for me. My husband and I were becoming strangers, and my daughter was desperitly missing her mother. It was there in the hospital bed that I decided to no longer be the Victom but to become the Victor. I decided from that day on I would become my own boss, and have that quality time with my family and the peace of mind that I deserved.

Sometimes God will allow us to be broken down or stripped so to speak, so that he can build us back up stronger and better than before. I am happy to say I have arrived and my husband and I are now ready for the battle. You see in order to obtain your goals and see your vision come to pass, you have to be willing to make sacrifices. After all if it were easy everyone would be happy and successful. Once I realized that and came to truley trust in God and not the Nay Sayers, I was able to say farewell to what was comfortable but not true Happiness. I must say it was the best decision I ever made.


Stay tuned I will take you along for the ride, often times you just hear the outcome to peoples success, but its not often you are taken through the journey with them. Stay tuned for updates on my journey. Remember you CAN DO anything you put your mind too. When you cease to believe you cease to move toward what God has in store for you.